irritating

what is it about me and my exes... they won't leave me alone. heres a convo:
Ex: wat up
Me: nothing u
Ex:chillin
Ex: how the boyz
Me: the boys?
Ex: lol
Ex: yea
Me: i don't have time for that
Ex: lol
Ex: thats kool
Me: i guess
Ex: lol
Ex: how school
Me: its good
Ex: that kool

did i seem like i wanted to have a conversation with him? i really don't think so. why do boys have to ask if i'm single or if i'm with someone or 'how the boys are?' that question really pisses me off. that is the last thing on my mind. the only time i think about boys is at parties on the weekends or some shit. i am on my COLLEGE grind. i'm here to get an education and graduate on time. my main concern is my GPA baby, and thats where it ends. i don't have time for the bullshit
peace

boys will say anything!

wow this is so funny. i'm sitting on the laptop, minding my own business.. when mark.. remember him? IM's me. whoa. i was like oh hell no he didn't! but he did. and he says to me 'hey babe'. i was like are u kidding me!? the only time i initiated any form of conversation with him was to say happy birthday to him. i'm so nice. anyway, then he has the audacity to say that he misses me. i said you do? lol. i mean, i don't miss him so why would i say that i missed him?! which made me think to myself, boys really will say anything!! oh wait, i didn't even tell u that he told me he LOVED me. i was like what the hell?! no you don't! i swear to god, i make boys fall in love with me. they always wanna tell me they love me. i must be a lovable person or something. but the thing is, of course, i don't love them. boys are always trying to rush me into something man! they wanna date me or fuck me and then subsequently tell me whatever it takes just so that they can get the panties. well heres a hint, you CAN'T get the panties. they aren't for sale or for lease. you're credit isn't good enough, cuz MY panties are priceless. lol. i'm a fool for that one. anyway... heres how things have been...

last weekend i got really drunk. now i am a drinker, but i can count on one hand the times where i have gotten so drunk that i've passed out and/or thrown up. once was after prom, once last year, and then last weekend. now the night started out normally. i had three shots of effen vodka. after that, i was not drunk. my tolerance is higher than that. so i'm waiting around and it hit me a little bit, so i felt kind of nice. then i had some of my friend's drink and i downed it really fast. that probably wasn't a good idea. then i decided to go next door to my other friend's house since it was his birthday. i said hi to him and then went inside (with the rest of my posse). now, by this time i am drunk. just drunk. i decide that being just drunk isn't good enough, so i had to more cups of what we call 'jungle juice' lol. i don't even remember drinking it. by the time i was done with that, i was fucked up. like i couldn't stand up. i really don't know how i got back to my friends house. i think someone carried me. i do remember falling down a flight of stairs though. anyway, i threw up which was gross, and i passed out. then the next day once i got back to my room, i threw up again...it was awful. and my whole body was sore from falling down the stairs.. it was bad man, really bad.

in other news... things have been pretty chill. i've been doing really well in math! yes, math. my first test i got an 81 and the second test i got a 92! go lauren!! things with my friends have been pretty good. its a little annoying because they are ALL trying to join up with some sorority or fraternity. its so annoying. i just hope they realize that the chances of them actually making it is slim to none.

homecoming is coming up. i already told you how i feel about that. i just hope it all works out and i have a good time. i just don't want to be a stressed out mess.

in hair news... i have decided to go natural. for those of you who do not know what it is... it is the growing out of permed hair so that your natural hair is what you work with...lol. i've been perming my hair for SO long and i'm just tired of it. its expensive, it is damaging my hair, and i want my hair to be healthy! its going to be an interesting journey... i'll definitely do updates on this with pictures and everything! so exciting!

peace out<3

safe

uhmm i'm scared to write what i feel. this blog is so public! lol. but there are some things that are really scary to talk about in such a public way. so in short... good things are happening... but i can't talk about them. i suck, im sorry. but, don't worry readers, don't worry.

Homecoming Blues

Today is really not going my way so far. I was woken up by my friend that wanted to tell me how she had a mouse in her room... WHY IS THAT MY PROBLEM!? anyway, that sucked. of course i couldn't go back to sleep so i had to stay up. she made me help her set up the mouse traps and everything. then i came back and watched tv for a few hours when gillian asked me if i wanted to go for a run. i really didn't want to go because i'm in horrible shape. anyway, the run made me feel awesome as runs tend to do. i checked my phone and i had 100 texts and missed calls. one was from arlene (my ex-babysitter/cousin) and she went on and on about how she is coming for howard's homecoming. i can't say i'm thrilled about that because having a guest during homecoming is extremely hectic. its hectic even when you're alone! the annoying part of the conversation was that i couldn't get a word in edgewise! she was also complaining about the fact that my parents were coming, trust me i don't want them to come either but, i can't do anything about it. they're my family. then she says she'll call me back.. so i took the opportunity to call my mom. she doesn't understand why i don't want them to come. i just really don't want to entertain anyone. she says we can just meet up and i don't have to entertain them. but i feel so bad. i'm caught in the middle. everyone wants to come to howard homecoming! thats fine but, i don't want to be the one entertaining everyone! i just want to have a relaxing weekend and enjoy the events... but i just know i'm gonna be jetsetting around DC like a chicken with it's head cut off. i feel bad because my mom got mad at me.. but honestly, i don't know why my family is coming. i DO NOT WANT them to come because i DO NOT WANT to entertain them and tell them what they should do! last year was hectic with my family coming and i really don't want to make this a tradition, because its not a very good one. i don't know what to do but this just feels like a disaster waiting to happen. i hate this!!!! ahh!!!!

God is SOO GOOD!

i have the BEST FRIENDS a girl could ever ask for! my two friends ran into an SLP (Speech Language Pathologist) that had a job opportunity for Speech Pathology majors. aka, me. so i got in contact with the woman via email. she called me this afternoon and asked about my availability. i was SOOO excited! she told me to meet her tomorrow at 11 at this school and i can't wait! get this... the job pays 15 dollars an hour!!! ahh! even if i work 10 hours a week, thats 150 bucks! do you know how much food i could buy?! how sad that thats the first thing i think of. anyway i'm so amped about it! i could eventually go shopping!!! yaaaay!

another reason why God is so good, my account balance was -.86 yesterday. sad, i know. i called my mother to see if she could put some money in my account, but i told her 'nevermind' and that i'd work it out. well i checked my account today and it was plus 50 bucks! i was confused but then elated! i have money!!!! things are so amazing i'm not even trippin over the fact that my period came early.

another reason why i'm so happy and God is so good (lol)... i really like this girl and i'm pretty sure she likes me too. and we went running and it was awesome!

LIFE IS SO GOOOOOOOD!!! yay!

pics

just a few pics from sophomore year so far ; )

Have You...

ever been so bored you don't know what to do with yourself? thats how i feel right now. i'm just hoping my phone will vibrate with something for me to do... so far nothing. if it wasn't raining, i'd probably do something. i wish i were hungry, so at least i could eat.. that would give me SOMETHING to do! i already did my laundry. my room is clean. i don't do homework on fridays. at least what not to wear is on. shit i don't even have anything to write about! i'm SO fucking bored. how interesting can this entry be if i have nothing to write, i apologize!

man. i should just go get a tattoo. nahh. its raining!

****** NEWS BRIEF ********

before i could even finish this entry, my friend knocked on the door and said she wanted to go out but her friends cancelled. so i said "LETS GO HOOKAH!" and that we did... on the way we dragged another bored student (jess) to come with us. it was really fun.. thank god!