naive

i realized something tonight.

i am 19 years old and i don't want to have sex. i never thought this would be as bad of an issue as it is. but the more i talk to guys and see what they're all about, the more i realize that i am just completely naive. guys ARE interested in one thing.. sex. and i can't offer that. so my whole thing is i really shouldn't talk to guys that have that one intention, which is all guys. therefore, i won't be talking to guys. the only exception is if they won't pressure me and are willing to wait for as long as it takes. and they can't make me feel bad about it either. so that leaves...uh... no one. sure there are other things that two people can do, but i don't want to be pressured to do that either. its sad and frustrating and i wish things were different, but they aren't. so i'm gonna keep hearing things like 'im gonna talk to other girls'... 'i'll wait, but could u, uh... suck my dick' and other shit like that. i'm done.

peace