--CRUSH--

This entry is dedicated to you, Mr. Perfect. I've mentioned Mr. Perfect before (I didn't name him, but, um, I just did...) Anyway. I've had this overwhelming, disgusting, palm-sweat-inducing, mind-numbing, head-over-heels in "love", facebook-stalking, daydream during exams, CRUSH on Mr. Perfect. He is probably the only person I've had a crush on for this long (a little over a year) at this age. He is one of very few that I've hooked up with and STILL been obsessed with after the fact. He is my dream man. My name sounds so good next to his and with his last name. He has this irresistible southern charm that any Long Island girl would fall for. He's older and (supposed to be) more mature. He is a graduating senior (unfortunately for me) and is a bio-major... which means that money is definitely in his future. Not to sound like a gold-digger or anything, but girls should go after Bio Majors, they're going somewhere! Anyway, yesterday, I ran into Mr. Perfect. It was a magical moment. We were passing each other and we stopped and he hugged me. Let us analyze this hug. The regular friendly hug usually doesn't last longer than 2-3 seconds. This hug was 5+ seconds and I let go first! Arm/hand positions, my arms were above his, as in, his were around my waist. THEN, when the hug had clearly run its course, he like held my waist for 2-3 seconds.. something you do when you wanna kiss someone! This huggage happened not once, but TWICE in our little conversation. Hello AND goodbye!! Absolutely magical!! He is one person on this campus that I would love love LOVE to date. Butttt, I don't know how that would occur.
any advice on what i should do with this dude will be greatly appreciated!!!

okay. enough of that. i have another story.

there was a guy i wrote about in september... maybe august... and his name was John... from brooklyn that i met in queens. anyway he is another guy that popped up since my no-penis vow was taken. he said some interesting shit to me such as 'i think we'll definitely be together' and that its like inevitable that we will work out ... things of that nature. i explained to him that i'm tired of being hurt and thats why i'm not messing with anyone... i just felt like, damn. thats a lot of nerve. you disappear and then when u decide to come barge back into my life, you talk about us being together? what the hell?!

peace<3