my winter break has been great so far. very little stress in my life. i'm just waiting for my grades to finally come in. that could take weeks. who knows?? here's what i've done so far.
wednesday: came home. cut off all my hair. went to sleep. EVENTFULLLL!
thursday: i woke up like super early and messed around doing nothing, then i went to sleep until about 11:30am. when i woke up my mom came home from work early so i talked to her for a bit. then i went to the verizon store because my phone was all messed up. they gave me a new one! then i went to European Republic... one of my favorite food places on the island. it was yummmmmyyyy. then i picked my brother up from school a little later. i don't think i did much else, probably just went to bed. haha. (i sleep a lot when i'm home)
friday: i woke up around 8am and then i made the silly decision to go to the gym. as you know i have been going to washington sports club and because i'm now a member, i can go to other sports clubs. so i went to NY sports clubs. UGH i hated it. its like the size of the average living room. its like a bunch of treadmills on top of each other. omg. that shit was SO tiny. i hate feeling cramped when i'm trying to work out. i think i'll try a different one on long island. because that was nooo good. when i came home i ate breakfast and then watched CSI until i fell asleep. (see, more sleep) lets see.. today!
today i woke up and did some nothing, lol... then i went for a run with my dad. its annoying running with him cuz he likes to talk and i like to focus on running. anyhoo, it was good. i was impressed with my endurance! speaking of which, i wanna lose between 10 and 13 pounds during this vacation. thats my lil goal. lol. now i'm just hanging out with my friend and my brother and his friend at my house cuz my parents aren't home. i loveeee vacation.
Saturday, December 13, 2008
Thursday, December 11, 2008
The Big Chop
thats right. i did it! i chopped off all of my hair. haha. it is soooo great! i feel like i've been freed from the chains of my permed hair! and i'm so happy with it, i honestly do not care what people have to say about it because i think its so great. i love the curl pattern that i had no idea that i had. yes, it is quite short, but i like it! when it grows out more, it will look even cuter and i'll be able to do more with it. i might color it..but i don't know yet. i love love LOVE it. I told CGT and he didn't seem to care (which is good!) and i'm going to send him a picture. we'll see how that goes lol. i am sooo happy!!!
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
so bittersweet!
today is THE day. i'm on my way home as i type! but i'm not fully happy. why? because of CGT! UGH! i feel like such a pussy. i'm supposed to be tough and look at me. WEAK! i was like, genuinely upset when i left him this morning. i was walking back to my dorm listening to 'i'm yours' by jason mraz and i was feeling like, sad. ew. lauren! snap out of it! okay. but i'm also gonna miss my good good friends such as dani *shouts to dani b!* lol. on to more important things...
i have a HUGE period-related pimple on my chin right now. it HURTS SO BADDDD!!!
item number two: i was recently put on to www.pandora.com it is like, the coolest thing ever. you create an account with the site and then basically, you type in an artist or song. they'll play a song from the artist and then they play other songs by similar sounding artists. you create your own radio station basically. it can be really nice. and you can make as many stations as you want. its really great. try it out.
item number three: i am really truly excited to go home. tonight i'm chopping off all of my hair. i'm not being girly and dramatic like, i'm actually only trimming it or something... i am literally cutting off ALL my hair. well not all per-se, but it's going to be very very short. lol. i'm SHITTING. like i'm really scared, but my hair sucks and i'm tired of it honestly. btw, don't try to stop me. i'm DOING it. remember how i said a while ago that i was going 'natural'... yeah, this is the 'big chop' part of it. so um, yeah. pictures are inevitable on this one... even if i hate it.
thats all folks!
peace!
i have a HUGE period-related pimple on my chin right now. it HURTS SO BADDDD!!!
item number two: i was recently put on to www.pandora.com it is like, the coolest thing ever. you create an account with the site and then basically, you type in an artist or song. they'll play a song from the artist and then they play other songs by similar sounding artists. you create your own radio station basically. it can be really nice. and you can make as many stations as you want. its really great. try it out.
item number three: i am really truly excited to go home. tonight i'm chopping off all of my hair. i'm not being girly and dramatic like, i'm actually only trimming it or something... i am literally cutting off ALL my hair. well not all per-se, but it's going to be very very short. lol. i'm SHITTING. like i'm really scared, but my hair sucks and i'm tired of it honestly. btw, don't try to stop me. i'm DOING it. remember how i said a while ago that i was going 'natural'... yeah, this is the 'big chop' part of it. so um, yeah. pictures are inevitable on this one... even if i hate it.
thats all folks!
peace!
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
Is There Something Wrong With Me?
well, of course.. several things. but one in particular is in question...
i am not stressed about finals. ask me how many books i cracked today... go ahead... okay. NONE. finals don't make or break my grade so i just refuse to pull all-nighters, chain smoke, or lose my mind over it. if i'm tired, that means its time for my body to rest... not stay up and 'study'. no no no. it doesn't work like that for me. i need to sleep at night and be awake in the morning and afternoon. period. so, right now i'm fucking tired. i'm not about to try and focus on something really important. nope!
item number two. i hate this song "my president is black". the song isn't remotely intelligent and i don't want my hubby barack involved in that niggerdom.
item number three. i hate my one R.A. he is so stupid! he is really loud and obnoxious. if i have an issue, i'm definitely not going to his dumb country bumpkin ass. ew.
item number four... we're doing five items today. this item is about flirting. no, i have not really mastered this art. sad, i know. i feel like flirting is so pointless. if the guy is not interested in me, flirting is obsolete right? i don't know but, thats how i feel. if u feel me like that, ask for my number. flirting is stupid... thats not really what i wanted to talk about... the question i'm posing to you readers is this... you tell me what this means:
*text messaging*
Girl: Heyy
Guy: Hey you..
is that flirtatious of the guy? my best guy friend said "yes" no hesitation... my brother said "it could be"... what do you guys think? because i think its definitely flirtatious... however as i said earlier, i have not mastered this art by any means.
item number five: jazmine sullivan. i LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE her. i hope i don't ever meet her because i won't know how to act. if you don't know her that well (because she is rather new) you should listen to the following songs (not her hits, i need you bad, lions tigers and bears, or bust your windows... even though those are good)
1. one night stand
2. silent tears
3. switch
4. make u stay
5. her remake of 'prototype'
some of those aren't on the album 'fearless' but they're still good, just listen to them on youtube. kay? cool.
okay, i am so freaking tired so i'm gonna go pee and then hit the hey! or is it hay... idk!
peace
i am not stressed about finals. ask me how many books i cracked today... go ahead... okay. NONE. finals don't make or break my grade so i just refuse to pull all-nighters, chain smoke, or lose my mind over it. if i'm tired, that means its time for my body to rest... not stay up and 'study'. no no no. it doesn't work like that for me. i need to sleep at night and be awake in the morning and afternoon. period. so, right now i'm fucking tired. i'm not about to try and focus on something really important. nope!
item number two. i hate this song "my president is black". the song isn't remotely intelligent and i don't want my hubby barack involved in that niggerdom.
item number three. i hate my one R.A. he is so stupid! he is really loud and obnoxious. if i have an issue, i'm definitely not going to his dumb country bumpkin ass. ew.
item number four... we're doing five items today. this item is about flirting. no, i have not really mastered this art. sad, i know. i feel like flirting is so pointless. if the guy is not interested in me, flirting is obsolete right? i don't know but, thats how i feel. if u feel me like that, ask for my number. flirting is stupid... thats not really what i wanted to talk about... the question i'm posing to you readers is this... you tell me what this means:
*text messaging*
Girl: Heyy
Guy: Hey you..
is that flirtatious of the guy? my best guy friend said "yes" no hesitation... my brother said "it could be"... what do you guys think? because i think its definitely flirtatious... however as i said earlier, i have not mastered this art by any means.
item number five: jazmine sullivan. i LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE her. i hope i don't ever meet her because i won't know how to act. if you don't know her that well (because she is rather new) you should listen to the following songs (not her hits, i need you bad, lions tigers and bears, or bust your windows... even though those are good)
1. one night stand
2. silent tears
3. switch
4. make u stay
5. her remake of 'prototype'
some of those aren't on the album 'fearless' but they're still good, just listen to them on youtube. kay? cool.
okay, i am so freaking tired so i'm gonna go pee and then hit the hey! or is it hay... idk!
peace
Monday, December 1, 2008
i really don't appreciate that...
okay sooooo here is the deal. i hate to write when i'm feeling bitchy because its annoying to read. but i have to do it today. soo lets begin.
if lauren decides she is going to go to a class, she expects that the teacher is there and ready to teach. i don't appreciate lateness and i don't appreciate teachers just not showing up without warning. today i went to my much neglected math class and was furious to realize that this motherfucker was not coming. so i went back to my room. later on i went to my other two classes, the last one being french. mind you, it takes all that is within me to bring myself to that class, so today, when she didn't show up... i almost lost it! not to mention, this is the week before finals! i need that extra boost before i go into these exams and my teachers had the nerve to just not show up! i'm so upset. my parents pay out the ass to send me to this school and the teachers don't even fucking show up the week before finals. that is some motherfuckin bullshit and i am really not pleased! ugh.
peace<3
if lauren decides she is going to go to a class, she expects that the teacher is there and ready to teach. i don't appreciate lateness and i don't appreciate teachers just not showing up without warning. today i went to my much neglected math class and was furious to realize that this motherfucker was not coming. so i went back to my room. later on i went to my other two classes, the last one being french. mind you, it takes all that is within me to bring myself to that class, so today, when she didn't show up... i almost lost it! not to mention, this is the week before finals! i need that extra boost before i go into these exams and my teachers had the nerve to just not show up! i'm so upset. my parents pay out the ass to send me to this school and the teachers don't even fucking show up the week before finals. that is some motherfuckin bullshit and i am really not pleased! ugh.
peace<3
Saturday, November 29, 2008
Thanksgiving Weekend : )
out of the three trips home, this weekend was by far the BEST! lets start from the beginning. my aunt picked me up tuesday night. she lives in silver spring, md. which is about 20 minutes away. my cousin and i just chilled and watched a "Dan in Real Life. it was GREAT, if u like "The Family Stone" you'll really like it. it was great, i would buy it on DVD! sooo, we went to sleep around 3am (up talking and doing girl stuff lol) ... so we had to wake up at 6:15 ish so that we could leave for new york. i couldn't wait because i really wanted to go home (duh!). the trip took about 5 hrs, but i slept most of the way, so it was good. when i got home, only my little brother was there, along with about 6 workers who were putting in new windows. it was a bit startling lol. after a while my cousin and aunt left, and my mom came home and shortly after, my dad came home too. then, i went to go get my hair done as i was in desperate neeeed! lol. since my moms friend lives next to the hair salon, i visited her for a bit and we talked about why she voted for mccain... very interesting. i was shocked that she had some decent points. anyhoo, i left there and went to go get my eyebrows done, of COURSE i got burned. ugh! once that was done, i got my dad a birthday card and my family and i went out to dinner. we went to majors steak house and it was (surprisingly) very good. right after that, i went into huntington village to meet up with my friends and subsequently saw everyone else who attends or once attended harborfields high school. we all realized that where we live might be the most boring place ever, in history. we spent about an hour trying to figure out what to do that wouldn't cost an arm and a leg. so we all just piled up in my car and drove around the village blasting spice girls and christina aguilera. it was really entertaining. then some more friends came and we hung out for a bit. then we went to wendy's to get some stuff from the value menu lol. we all had to pee so we went to pathmark to use their bathroom. ensuite, we went back to the village and everyone parted ways. i really enjoyed that night because we had fun without drugs, alcohol, or especially, my vice, cigarettes.
this brings us to thursday. the first thing i did was go for a run because i didn't want to experience too much guilt. i was really proud of myself for doing that. after that, i showered, went to the deli, and visited kaitlin. it was sooo lovely seeing her and talk to her. she is one of my few friends that knows soo much history about me and vice versa. it was really great seeing her ; )... so when i left kaitlin's, i went back home and tried to avoid helping my mom. i just HATE setting up for holiday gatherings at my house. i don't know why, its like, a childhood thing. around 2 my moms friend, the one that was mentioned before, came over with her two kids and helped my mom set up. somewhere in there, i took a nap..lol. around 4:30 my family started showing up. i was happy for that because i couldn't wait to eat the fooood!!!! it just smelled so good! i was happy to see my cousins, aunts, uncle, grandma etc. i really love my family. they're pretty funny people. i also met the newest addition to our family... little cousin TJ!! he was sooo freaking adorable! hes 10 months old, although he looks like a toddler already. he was the most mild mannered baby i've ever seen in my life. he came to the house sleeping, smiled, laughed, and ate all night, then left quietly. a few random screams of excitement, but no crying at all. he even liked princess, the hyperactive dog. lol. it was the cutest thing i've ever seen. he was in his walker and princess was sitting next to him and he actually reached out and pulled on her ear. i don't think princess liked that... but it was funny as HELL! lol. i love that kid. the first time i saw him, he was still in the womb, so it was really like meeting him for the first time. any baby that doesn't cry in my arms is cool with me! so everyone left, minus my cousin, and i got ready for bed. then my bestie called and said he wanted to visit me really quick. i was super stoked and told him to come over. i met his friend and we reminisced about the good ol' days in jack and jill and our good memories from middle school and high school. i love that kid. then i slipped into a coma. this brings us to friday...
because i am broke, there was not a whole lot of black friday shopping going on in my life. i wanted to make some gifts, so i bought some yarn so that i could knit some hats, scarves, and things of that nature. lol. michael's was CRAZY! people were losing their minds. i spent about 30 bucks in that store and i know i'll be able to make a couple of cute gifts for friends and family. being crafty is such a plus! then my cousin, mother, and i went to macy's because i needed new bras... my first REAL bras since surgery!! i was sooo excited! i got one more 'functional' bra for everyday wear... but its still really cute. the other one is ADORABLE. its black and tan with lace and ribbons and bows and everything girly i could ever ask for! FINALLLLLY!!! a cute bra! it was pretty exciting. i felt like a real girl! :) i am still beaming about that! when we got home, we all watched "27 Dresses"... i was reluctant, but it was actually really good! i am always reluctant when it comes to wedding movies, they just annoy me. but this was definitely a good one. **I ENDORSE THIS MOVIE** lol... then i drove my cousin back to queens and we hung out for a bit (i knitted a little too) and we watched true life. it was great. then, i left her house and went to my brothers house. he was having a little get together for me to meet some of his friends. they were all really cool. i liked all of them actually. i got semi-drunk, but nothing too bad. it was really fun. i stayed over there and then i went home. my dad made breakfast that was, um, interesting. lol. i packed up a little bit, then went to michael's to exchange something. my mom and i were talking about what to get nigel for christmas and she said he wanted an ipod. so we went to the apple store and she got him a 16 gb ipod touch. i wish MY life was that easy. i never get what i want! lol. (middle child syndrome at its finest) haha. so we went back home and i got ready to go. i went to charge my phone and realized that it wouldn't charge for some reason. so i did 80 all the way to CVS to get a universal charger. UGH, it was too stressful. but hey, i'll take one stressful event for the whole weekend. so i left at 3:30 so that i could make the, what i thought was, a 5:00 bus. i got to manhattan at 4:45!! ahh! but when i got to the stop, the 4:00 bus hadn't even come yet...and i realized that my bus was at 5:30 lol. the 4:00 bus was extremely delayed but by the grace of god, my bus was right on time! so now i'm a few hours into the trip and i'm just relaxing, knitting, and occasionally checking facebook. and now, the next chapter: CGT of course...
ohh, CGT... haha. we didn't end up talking on wednesday, but he sent me the most adorable text message on thanksgiving morning. basically it just said that he was grateful for having me in his life and that made me feel so special!! i responded with 'is this a forward?' lol and he said, no. :) on friday night i texted him and he responded 'hey you' which is what i always use when i want to sound flirtatious, but maybe it doesn't translate for men... idk. lol. we texted briefly and he went to sleep. today, he called me to 'check up on me' during my trip back to DC. i thought that was cute. he said to call him when i get back there.
CONCLUSION: this weekend was fabulous and i really am so pleased with how everything went.
peace<3
this brings us to thursday. the first thing i did was go for a run because i didn't want to experience too much guilt. i was really proud of myself for doing that. after that, i showered, went to the deli, and visited kaitlin. it was sooo lovely seeing her and talk to her. she is one of my few friends that knows soo much history about me and vice versa. it was really great seeing her ; )... so when i left kaitlin's, i went back home and tried to avoid helping my mom. i just HATE setting up for holiday gatherings at my house. i don't know why, its like, a childhood thing. around 2 my moms friend, the one that was mentioned before, came over with her two kids and helped my mom set up. somewhere in there, i took a nap..lol. around 4:30 my family started showing up. i was happy for that because i couldn't wait to eat the fooood!!!! it just smelled so good! i was happy to see my cousins, aunts, uncle, grandma etc. i really love my family. they're pretty funny people. i also met the newest addition to our family... little cousin TJ!! he was sooo freaking adorable! hes 10 months old, although he looks like a toddler already. he was the most mild mannered baby i've ever seen in my life. he came to the house sleeping, smiled, laughed, and ate all night, then left quietly. a few random screams of excitement, but no crying at all. he even liked princess, the hyperactive dog. lol. it was the cutest thing i've ever seen. he was in his walker and princess was sitting next to him and he actually reached out and pulled on her ear. i don't think princess liked that... but it was funny as HELL! lol. i love that kid. the first time i saw him, he was still in the womb, so it was really like meeting him for the first time. any baby that doesn't cry in my arms is cool with me! so everyone left, minus my cousin, and i got ready for bed. then my bestie called and said he wanted to visit me really quick. i was super stoked and told him to come over. i met his friend and we reminisced about the good ol' days in jack and jill and our good memories from middle school and high school. i love that kid. then i slipped into a coma. this brings us to friday...
because i am broke, there was not a whole lot of black friday shopping going on in my life. i wanted to make some gifts, so i bought some yarn so that i could knit some hats, scarves, and things of that nature. lol. michael's was CRAZY! people were losing their minds. i spent about 30 bucks in that store and i know i'll be able to make a couple of cute gifts for friends and family. being crafty is such a plus! then my cousin, mother, and i went to macy's because i needed new bras... my first REAL bras since surgery!! i was sooo excited! i got one more 'functional' bra for everyday wear... but its still really cute. the other one is ADORABLE. its black and tan with lace and ribbons and bows and everything girly i could ever ask for! FINALLLLLY!!! a cute bra! it was pretty exciting. i felt like a real girl! :) i am still beaming about that! when we got home, we all watched "27 Dresses"... i was reluctant, but it was actually really good! i am always reluctant when it comes to wedding movies, they just annoy me. but this was definitely a good one. **I ENDORSE THIS MOVIE** lol... then i drove my cousin back to queens and we hung out for a bit (i knitted a little too) and we watched true life. it was great. then, i left her house and went to my brothers house. he was having a little get together for me to meet some of his friends. they were all really cool. i liked all of them actually. i got semi-drunk, but nothing too bad. it was really fun. i stayed over there and then i went home. my dad made breakfast that was, um, interesting. lol. i packed up a little bit, then went to michael's to exchange something. my mom and i were talking about what to get nigel for christmas and she said he wanted an ipod. so we went to the apple store and she got him a 16 gb ipod touch. i wish MY life was that easy. i never get what i want! lol. (middle child syndrome at its finest) haha. so we went back home and i got ready to go. i went to charge my phone and realized that it wouldn't charge for some reason. so i did 80 all the way to CVS to get a universal charger. UGH, it was too stressful. but hey, i'll take one stressful event for the whole weekend. so i left at 3:30 so that i could make the, what i thought was, a 5:00 bus. i got to manhattan at 4:45!! ahh! but when i got to the stop, the 4:00 bus hadn't even come yet...and i realized that my bus was at 5:30 lol. the 4:00 bus was extremely delayed but by the grace of god, my bus was right on time! so now i'm a few hours into the trip and i'm just relaxing, knitting, and occasionally checking facebook. and now, the next chapter: CGT of course...
ohh, CGT... haha. we didn't end up talking on wednesday, but he sent me the most adorable text message on thanksgiving morning. basically it just said that he was grateful for having me in his life and that made me feel so special!! i responded with 'is this a forward?' lol and he said, no. :) on friday night i texted him and he responded 'hey you' which is what i always use when i want to sound flirtatious, but maybe it doesn't translate for men... idk. lol. we texted briefly and he went to sleep. today, he called me to 'check up on me' during my trip back to DC. i thought that was cute. he said to call him when i get back there.
CONCLUSION: this weekend was fabulous and i really am so pleased with how everything went.
peace<3
Monday, November 24, 2008
MOI!!!
ME!! i spent a lot of time this summer focusing on myself rather than the boys that came in and out of my life. that decision was most definitely a good one, and today i realized that it shouldn't stop just because the summer is over. in this new 'relationship' of sorts i need to really keep him on the back burner and keep myself unattached. i REFUSE to get hurt in this situation and the only way to accomplish that is to not be attached. i mean sure, i like him (CGT for those of u who don't read regularly)... but he can't be numero uno on my list of things and people that are important to me. he isn't. he never was. but i'm just saying, i gotta keep it like that. and also... i have to make sure that he realizes that thats all he is to me.. entertainment.
ow ow OWW!
peace
ow ow OWW!
peace
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