brand new me

since i've been at school, i haven't felt totally like myself. i still went to church, but i wasn't having the same connection with god, i ate reeeeally bad and didn't work out (thanks for the +19 pounds), and i cursed a lot more than usual. i feel like this summer is an opportunity to change these things. i am really going to try not to curse anymore. i feel like thats a good starting point to my new self. secondly, the weight issue. i figured that going back to my old habits of eating (at home) i would go back to my old weight. howevaaaa, i plan to do more than that...okay so i weigh 179. holy crap. thats a lot for a girl thats only 5'2". by the end of the summer i would totally be stoked to weigh 145. that means i'd lose 34 lbs. i feel that i'm a pretty dedicated girl when i wanna be, and i know myself. i know that right now i'm super unhappy with the way i look, i feel like crap, i've got no energy. thats not me! my idea is that i'm going to do whatever it takes to get to the point where i am happy with my body. i've been happy with my body in the past, and thats what i want for my future. and lastly...my relationship with god. since i'm home, of course i'm going to go to church. hopefully that helps. well i'll keep you posted on the new me...


PEACE!!