...i get knocked right back down. as you can read, i was feeling reeeeeally good this morning. now i feel HORRIBLE. everything is going wrong. i thought i had a B in this class... but i have a C and the only way i can get a B is if i do the optional final thats a 4000 word response essay...not four hundred...four THOUSAND btw. i never have and still can't catch a break. i tried to call my mom but to follow her normal pattern, she gave me a "let me call you back" and then hung up. when she called me back i nearly broke my toe on my stupid mother fucking roommate's suitcase. so i hung up. when i called her back, she said "well i don't know what to tell ya" at this point, i just want to take the fucking C in the class, do poorly and not come back to howard. i feel like the world is against me right now. i don't want to be around anyone at all. no one can offer a single word of advice other than 'it'll be okay' (even though it won't) or 'you'll be fine' (even though i'm not).... and NO i DON'T WANT TO FUCKING TALK TO YOU RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!!!! i'm sick of everything dc has to 'offer' me right now. i'm sick of my roommates. i'm sick of my 'friends' i'm sick of looking at the same four motherfucking walls, i'm sick of school, i'm sick of this heat and of sweating even when i'm completely still, i'm sick of trying and reaping nothing from my efforts, i'm sick of my parents offering zero support, i'm sick of people who pretend to listen to me, i'm sick of old flames showing themselves, i'm pretty much sick of my current life right now.
can i PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE go home!!?!?!?!?!?!?!??!?!
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