..Pink Diaries..

..Pink Diaries..
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Thursday, July 24, 2008

help!

this is bad. okay the other day i was talking to uhh *Mark*(the guy that i had dated and wants me back.. haha) and he said something that i didn't really know how to react to... he had gone on this date (as a favor for his cousin). this was the txt convo:

Me: (yes i texted him 1st) how was ur date the other day
Mark: it was alright
Me: it would've been better if it were with me (cute right?)
Mark: not really (ouch)
Me: well damn
Mark: u told me u werent interested in dating me
Me: hmm, i guess. if i were to date u it would take a while for me to feel comfortable...if u feel like its a waste of time tell me now so i dont bother u (at this point i was like.. u should be wooing me..dammit!)
Mark: i'm not tryin to be mean but u said that i would be wasting my time if i was trying to get with u

end of convo

then later he IMed me... the first thing he says is "why are u mad at me"... please tell me when i sounded like i was mad. i wasn't mad. i was a little disappointed. but not mad. i felt like he had given up... and even if i'm not interested in a guy.. i still want him to be interested in me (ain't that terrible)

besides all that drama... i talked to my cousin and she (in about 10 minutes) convinced me that i needed to move on from him...that his baggage wasn't worth it and i agree with that. but he is doing a lot right. this is confusingggg! remember how i said i was nervous about the "hey babe" thing... its partially because that draws me in! i LIKE that shit! ahh! and he says it.. a lot. another line was crossed. i thought about him before i fell asleep last night. that is the biggest proof that i like someone. i am scared! maybe i should just lighten up and go with the flow. and he can be so cute. i really doubt that i'm even making sense.

ok so last night. i went online and i saw that he was online... and in my head i was like ok, he has 4 minutes to IM me (childish i know) and u know what.. HE DID. i asked him what he wanted to do when i got back from MV... and he said whatever u want to do...and i said well idk what i wanna do, thats why i asked u.. and he goes (this is the cute part) well i dont care, i just want to see u. JESUSSSS CHIRSTTT. i don't know.

should i just make a pro/con list and decide... should i just talk to him and get to know each other better...then decide... should i just use the opportunity to have a summer fling (lord knows i love a summer fling)... please tell me what to do readers!

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