another update

okay, so its monday today. by now, i was SUPPOSED to have an answer. of course i don't have one. i'm not surprised actually but i really was hoping that it would happen today. i hate this whole, waiting in the valence thing. i wrote before that they said they would expedite the process... when, i called today they said the only time they expedite anything is if it is life or death. i don't know who to believe or what the hell to do. at this point i'm truly starting to give up hope. i feel like this is just not going to happen for me. i'm on such a tight schedule and if i can't even get answer by mid june, it only leaves me a week or two to get an answer and i just don't see that happening. i really want this for myself, but right now, i'm going to come to terms with it, leave it to my dad to duke out with Cigna, and get it set in my mind that this is just NOT going to happen for me. it sucks and i'm tired of being crushed everyday when i think i'm going to get the answer. the people at Cigna are fucking retarded, i will not be getting an answer ANYTIME soon, and this dream i've had for four years is really going down the drain until next summer the earliest.