okay, i'm gonna fucking lose it now

i swear to fucking god, i am going to lose my mind. as you read in the last post, the lady told me i would find out within 48 hours. the bitch made me believe that i was going to find out today or tomorrow or some shit. i called again today right, and when he told me it was still pending, i thought i was gonna come through the phone on this man. so he puts me on hold for about 5 minutes. then he tells me the same information i got yesterday only with a new little nugget of information, it would be in review for up to another 20 days. when that he said those words, i...went...OFF. i have never in my life screamed at someone i didn't know, the way i did him. i was laying down when i called, but by the time i was done with him, i was sitting straight up. i had my full-on Tanisha voice going on top of everything. i said, "YOU GUYS HAVE HAD THIS CASE SINCE APRIL, IF YOU GUYS WOULD HAVE TOLD ME IN APRIL THAT IT WAS GOING TO TAKE THREE TO FOUR MONTHS, I WOULDN'T HAVE BEEN SO UPSET!!! EVERY TIME I CALL, YOU ADD ON ANOTHER 15, 20, 30 DAYS!! WHEN I FIRST CALL, SHE TELLS ME 40 DAYS, I WAIT THAT AMOUNT OF TIME AND NOTHING!!! NOW YESTERDAY I CALLED AND SHE TELLS ME 48 HOURS WHEN IT IS REALLY ANOTHER 20 DAYS, SHE SHOULDA TOLD ME THIS YESTERDAY!" he tells me it really shouldn't take longer than a week blah blah blah. i am fucking pissed off. i can't even begin to tell you how mad that shit made me. they should've told me in april that it would take the remainder of my fucking life to find out, then i would've been a lot more fucking understanding. i'm gonna go call the doctors office now. i haven't been this mad in a long time. omg. i need a cigarette soooo badly right now.