so I've been back at school for almost a week. its been pretty damn fantastic so far. i must say, the floor i'm on is very quiet... almost too quiet. i'm glad i don't have people screaming at the top of their lungs at 5am. my classes suck because they're really far away from each other and i have to walk up-hill a lot. good exercise i guess. the commuting bit that i have to do doesn't bother me too much. some of my classes are interesting, others i fell asleep in. i really love being back at school. i think i have the best friends EVER... my friends make me believe in god because i know he placed them in my life here at school. they're the best!! and now for the fun stuff...kinda i guess...
johnnnn! ah!! now if u remember, i met this guy john before i got to howard. we've been talking daily and omigod you guys i really like him. and i really think he likes me. he is really sweet! yesterday he said that he thinks i'm good for him. and omg i asked him what he was doing and he said, "not too much, just talking to an angel." i just totally died. now of course here are the problems:
1) the 4 hour distance thing
2) i don't want to be in a relationship
problem 1 should be okay because i do come home pretty often... however, problem number two is more important and pressing. i am really scared to be in a relationship. i was hurt in every relationship i've been in and quite frankly i'm sick of it! and thats why i haven't been putting myself in a position where i can get hurt therefore... i run from being in a relationship. but i'm trying not to worry about it. just trying to letttt it happpen. lol. i worry a lot man.
gotta go make some soup! xoxoxox
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
Monday, August 25, 2008
SCHOOL SPIRIT MA FUCKAAAA!!!
i LOVE HOWARD U!!! wow. for those of u who read regularly, u know how much i despised high school. i never had school spirit. (even when i was a cheerleader) i didn't give a DAMN if we lost lol. i just hated being there so... its really cool to LOVE MY SCHOOL! when people say "Howard" or "College" or "Washington DC" my heart just flutters! i love it! its the best!
today was my first day of class. i didn't mind waking up early today, or waiting for the shuttle, or listening to some of my new teachers... i was just so happy to be back! i saw a lot of my friends that i hadn't seen yet. it was great! one of these "friends" being the boy i'm semi in love with. why 'semi' in love? because he probably doesn't love me back.. but he DEFFF wants me. hahaha. well idk about that but i like to think so. :)
i also saw this boy i met the other day who has 'baby daddy' potential. i'm not totally certain, but hes cool peoples anyway.
more importantly (i think) my classes were pretty decent. i'm scared for my math class. i even told the teacher that i was very scared. i have the same french teacher i had last semester. still crazy.
i have so many thoughts i can't even write them all! i'll write later! ahhh!
today was my first day of class. i didn't mind waking up early today, or waiting for the shuttle, or listening to some of my new teachers... i was just so happy to be back! i saw a lot of my friends that i hadn't seen yet. it was great! one of these "friends" being the boy i'm semi in love with. why 'semi' in love? because he probably doesn't love me back.. but he DEFFF wants me. hahaha. well idk about that but i like to think so. :)
i also saw this boy i met the other day who has 'baby daddy' potential. i'm not totally certain, but hes cool peoples anyway.
more importantly (i think) my classes were pretty decent. i'm scared for my math class. i even told the teacher that i was very scared. i have the same french teacher i had last semester. still crazy.
i have so many thoughts i can't even write them all! i'll write later! ahhh!
Saturday, August 23, 2008
boyzzz (and other things along the way)
wow i haven't written in a REALLY long time. i'm sorry to keep yall waiting. haha. well heres some shit that happened to ya girl.
first of all... boy news. right before i left for school (like literally two days before) i met this guy in Queens and he is soooo cute. his name is John. he was wearing a black tshirt, black Levi's (weakness), a black hat and the Jackass Vans. very nice. Here was the situation. i walk into the store that he works in and he asks to take my bag (they do that in queens). so i stopped dead in my tracks cuz i didn't even see him. imagine the shock when i saw how cute he was just standing there smiling. lol. so i went about my shopping and left him with a "have a good day". when i went back to where my aunt was, i tried despeartely to think of ways to go back in that store without being obvious. suddenly I remember that i need thread so i went back into the store and he immediately strikes up conversation. haha. i'm thinking to myself..stillll got it! so we exchanged numbers and talked for a bit. i was just so mad that i 1) lived on long island and 2) was leaving for DC in 48 hours. but he was cool and his eyelashes were about this long : ____________________________________ so yeah. lol. i think i'm going to come home in 2 weeks and then i'll definitely try to chill with him. that's that!
so things with mark didn't really end on the most positive note. like, before i left he wouldn't kiss me. that shit isn't cool. i was also mad because when i had said to him (angry) "you can talk to other girls, i really don't care" he responded with, " i already am". ouch... haha. so i told him that we could stop talking then. now of course about one day later he's hitting me up with "i miss you already, i miss you so bad its not even funny". nigga i don't give a FUCK. he got all pissy if i didn't wanna fuck him or suck his dick... sorry if i just don't feel like it but he would know i wasn't in the mood to... and still invite me over and then bitch and moan the whole time. UGH! it was annoying.
well i FINALLY got back to the amazing, prestigious, illustrious HOWARD UNIVERSITY! yay! i'm staying in Meridian Hill Hall which is off campus and my room is actually nice. at first it seemed kind of small, but its nice regardless. the girls said it was 'cozy' which is the perfect word to describe it. since i've been here its been pretty fun. its interesting being alone in the room all the time. i get bored with no one to talk to but i don't really mind. i was alone the whole summer mostly, so its okay.
last night we went to the club. for some reason i wore heels. i mean, they're comfortable but not after 4 hours... i looked cute though!
more later
first of all... boy news. right before i left for school (like literally two days before) i met this guy in Queens and he is soooo cute. his name is John. he was wearing a black tshirt, black Levi's (weakness), a black hat and the Jackass Vans. very nice. Here was the situation. i walk into the store that he works in and he asks to take my bag (they do that in queens). so i stopped dead in my tracks cuz i didn't even see him. imagine the shock when i saw how cute he was just standing there smiling. lol. so i went about my shopping and left him with a "have a good day". when i went back to where my aunt was, i tried despeartely to think of ways to go back in that store without being obvious. suddenly I remember that i need thread so i went back into the store and he immediately strikes up conversation. haha. i'm thinking to myself..stillll got it! so we exchanged numbers and talked for a bit. i was just so mad that i 1) lived on long island and 2) was leaving for DC in 48 hours. but he was cool and his eyelashes were about this long : ____________________________________ so yeah. lol. i think i'm going to come home in 2 weeks and then i'll definitely try to chill with him. that's that!
so things with mark didn't really end on the most positive note. like, before i left he wouldn't kiss me. that shit isn't cool. i was also mad because when i had said to him (angry) "you can talk to other girls, i really don't care" he responded with, " i already am". ouch... haha. so i told him that we could stop talking then. now of course about one day later he's hitting me up with "i miss you already, i miss you so bad its not even funny". nigga i don't give a FUCK. he got all pissy if i didn't wanna fuck him or suck his dick... sorry if i just don't feel like it but he would know i wasn't in the mood to... and still invite me over and then bitch and moan the whole time. UGH! it was annoying.
well i FINALLY got back to the amazing, prestigious, illustrious HOWARD UNIVERSITY! yay! i'm staying in Meridian Hill Hall which is off campus and my room is actually nice. at first it seemed kind of small, but its nice regardless. the girls said it was 'cozy' which is the perfect word to describe it. since i've been here its been pretty fun. its interesting being alone in the room all the time. i get bored with no one to talk to but i don't really mind. i was alone the whole summer mostly, so its okay.
last night we went to the club. for some reason i wore heels. i mean, they're comfortable but not after 4 hours... i looked cute though!
more later
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
naive
i realized something tonight.
i am 19 years old and i don't want to have sex. i never thought this would be as bad of an issue as it is. but the more i talk to guys and see what they're all about, the more i realize that i am just completely naive. guys ARE interested in one thing.. sex. and i can't offer that. so my whole thing is i really shouldn't talk to guys that have that one intention, which is all guys. therefore, i won't be talking to guys. the only exception is if they won't pressure me and are willing to wait for as long as it takes. and they can't make me feel bad about it either. so that leaves...uh... no one. sure there are other things that two people can do, but i don't want to be pressured to do that either. its sad and frustrating and i wish things were different, but they aren't. so i'm gonna keep hearing things like 'im gonna talk to other girls'... 'i'll wait, but could u, uh... suck my dick' and other shit like that. i'm done.
peace
i am 19 years old and i don't want to have sex. i never thought this would be as bad of an issue as it is. but the more i talk to guys and see what they're all about, the more i realize that i am just completely naive. guys ARE interested in one thing.. sex. and i can't offer that. so my whole thing is i really shouldn't talk to guys that have that one intention, which is all guys. therefore, i won't be talking to guys. the only exception is if they won't pressure me and are willing to wait for as long as it takes. and they can't make me feel bad about it either. so that leaves...uh... no one. sure there are other things that two people can do, but i don't want to be pressured to do that either. its sad and frustrating and i wish things were different, but they aren't. so i'm gonna keep hearing things like 'im gonna talk to other girls'... 'i'll wait, but could u, uh... suck my dick' and other shit like that. i'm done.
peace
Saturday, August 9, 2008
30 Truths of LCH (that's me)
1. I really LOVE watching TV. Especially reality TV.
2. I have a huge crush on Lil' Wayne.
3. I am a really big fan of Paris Hilton.
4. I am a youtube addict.
5. I went through a rebellious stage when i was 13 and 14.
6. My favorite thing to drink is iced tea.
7. My favorite cereal is Cap'n Crunch: Crunch Berries
8. I am really close with my three cousins.
9. I've never had a boyfriend longer than 3 months. Pathetic, I know.
10. I like Donald Trump.
11. My most listened to artist on my ipod is Robin Thicke.
12. I LOVE LOVE LOVE kissing!
13. I like when boys have neat dreads. Yummm.
14. My mom and I are very close.
15. I absolutely cannot stand Long Island.
16. I am obsessed with crime tv.
17. I started watching Family Guy when i got to college.
18. I am highly allergic to cats.
19. I hate cats.
20. I think the Jonas Brothers have no talent.
21. I am always being compared to Rudy Huxtable.
22. I love Cosmopolitan magazine.
23. I hate my butt.
24. I used to dance.
25. My favorite movie is ATL and i've seen it a LOT of times.
26. I'm a lover, not a fighter.
27. I HATEEEEE action movies.
28. I HATE going to see movies in theaters.
29. I love R&B music.
30. I was born in New Jersey.
2. I have a huge crush on Lil' Wayne.
3. I am a really big fan of Paris Hilton.
4. I am a youtube addict.
5. I went through a rebellious stage when i was 13 and 14.
6. My favorite thing to drink is iced tea.
7. My favorite cereal is Cap'n Crunch: Crunch Berries
8. I am really close with my three cousins.
9. I've never had a boyfriend longer than 3 months. Pathetic, I know.
10. I like Donald Trump.
11. My most listened to artist on my ipod is Robin Thicke.
12. I LOVE LOVE LOVE kissing!
13. I like when boys have neat dreads. Yummm.
14. My mom and I are very close.
15. I absolutely cannot stand Long Island.
16. I am obsessed with crime tv.
17. I started watching Family Guy when i got to college.
18. I am highly allergic to cats.
19. I hate cats.
20. I think the Jonas Brothers have no talent.
21. I am always being compared to Rudy Huxtable.
22. I love Cosmopolitan magazine.
23. I hate my butt.
24. I used to dance.
25. My favorite movie is ATL and i've seen it a LOT of times.
26. I'm a lover, not a fighter.
27. I HATEEEEE action movies.
28. I HATE going to see movies in theaters.
29. I love R&B music.
30. I was born in New Jersey.
why i don't go to parties on long island... PART 2!
i forgot to write about this. omg. ok. the house that the party was in was gross. okay we were in the basement. so i thought to myself, "okay this is a dirty basement. but people have dirty basements but a clean house." well got damn was i wrong. i went upstairs to go to the bathroom. holy hell this house was fucking disgusting. when we went to the bathroom... there was literally a pile of filth in the corner with hair and crap in it. it was sooo nasty. then i just looked around this house was so nasty. just garbage and random shit everywhere piled up. it was a pig sty! i am still disgusted.
i just had to let my readers know about this triflin-ness.
i just had to let my readers know about this triflin-ness.
why i don't go to parties on long island...
so last night i went to a party on long island. i haven't been to a party like this since the end of high school. i never have fun at these beer pong, stand around, no (good) music, card playing, parties. i love leaving the house at 11, going to a house party, getting niiiice, and then dancing until 2am. <- that is a fun time! but this... not so much. let me set up the scene:
Character List
*No Shirt Guy* runs around crazily, screaming in an annoying "italian-new york" accent, without a shirt, making out with his slutty girlfriend who looks like she's not a day older than 12.
*Slutty Party Girl* is the girlfriend of No Shirt Guy and walks around the beer pong table, dancing awkwardly and off beat, she weighs about 67 pounds and has about a year's worth of hair gel in her head
*My Friend's Roommate* was altogether pretty cool, but her laugh was off the chains! not only was the laugh startlingly loud, but it was high pitched and never-ending!!!! when she would laugh, the whole party seemed to stop what they were doing and look at her
*Other Guys* were mostly just drinking, making out with their girlfriends, playing video games or cards, and just overall acting like idiots.
*Other Girls* were either making out with the guys, watching the beer pong ppl, or doing that same awkward dancing thing..
it was crazy boring... might i add in i was high... anyway, it was soo boring. i didn't feel like doing any of the 'activities' that were going on, including drinking (beer is so fattening) so i just sat around. oh.. which reminds me of something that bothers me...
white ppl are all of a sudden so comfortable saying the 'n' word. i don't give NO kind of fuck if there is an 'er' or and 'a' ending, that word should be completely off limits to white people. i mean, it should never leave their lips. they shouldn't even be thinking it! idk, maybe they didn't see me, a black chick, sitting there, or maybe they saw me and it didn't phase them. but either way, they should be seriously injured for saying that word. i don't like that shit. its bad enough that we black people say it. right? right.
that party was proof to me that i need to go to DC asap and party forreal. and its another reason to never come back.
ps... things with *mark are good. really good : )
Character List
*No Shirt Guy* runs around crazily, screaming in an annoying "italian-new york" accent, without a shirt, making out with his slutty girlfriend who looks like she's not a day older than 12.
*Slutty Party Girl* is the girlfriend of No Shirt Guy and walks around the beer pong table, dancing awkwardly and off beat, she weighs about 67 pounds and has about a year's worth of hair gel in her head
*My Friend's Roommate* was altogether pretty cool, but her laugh was off the chains! not only was the laugh startlingly loud, but it was high pitched and never-ending!!!! when she would laugh, the whole party seemed to stop what they were doing and look at her
*Other Guys* were mostly just drinking, making out with their girlfriends, playing video games or cards, and just overall acting like idiots.
*Other Girls* were either making out with the guys, watching the beer pong ppl, or doing that same awkward dancing thing..
it was crazy boring... might i add in i was high... anyway, it was soo boring. i didn't feel like doing any of the 'activities' that were going on, including drinking (beer is so fattening) so i just sat around. oh.. which reminds me of something that bothers me...
white ppl are all of a sudden so comfortable saying the 'n' word. i don't give NO kind of fuck if there is an 'er' or and 'a' ending, that word should be completely off limits to white people. i mean, it should never leave their lips. they shouldn't even be thinking it! idk, maybe they didn't see me, a black chick, sitting there, or maybe they saw me and it didn't phase them. but either way, they should be seriously injured for saying that word. i don't like that shit. its bad enough that we black people say it. right? right.
that party was proof to me that i need to go to DC asap and party forreal. and its another reason to never come back.
ps... things with *mark are good. really good : )
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