mini-update

well. after the last incident, i called the doctor's office and the surgeon's secretary told me she would contact the insurance company and tell them off. sounded good to me. so she called me back and told me that they expedited the process and i should find out by monday (a day away from today)... so i've got to wait one more day until i find out. at this point, its in god's hands and i'm just going to sit back and let it unfold. you know, i'm really scared. mostly, i'm scared of not being COMPLETELY under when they start the surgery, i'm also scared that i'll have a bad reaction to the anesthesia and throw up a lot afterwards. i'm not scared for the pain of it, i have a high tolerance for pain actually. plus, it'll be nice to not move for a week lol. i'm more excited than scared actually. this is going to mean, the end of PAIN. pain that i feel from the moment i wake up until the moment i go to sleep. this is back pain that i've experienced for the past 4 or 5 years. i can't wait for that to be over. the thing i fear the most, is being DENIED. if they deny my case, i'll have to start saving up NOW to pay for this surgery out of pocket and get it done years from now. i do not want that to happen. anyway, i'm getting myself nervous for no reason...i'm going to write about my night last night...

so i saw my friend diego thursday and he said he wanted to hang out on friday. he asked what i wanted to do and i said, smoke weed. sounded good to the both of us sooo thats what we did friday night. it was cool. remember that um, i stopped smoking a while ago, and that night i think i smoked about 5 or 6 cigarettes, i was SO mad at myself. all i know is i won't smoke again until after my surgery (if it happens that is). see how my life revolves around this surgery?! ugh! ttyl man, ttyl

okay, i'm gonna fucking lose it now

i swear to fucking god, i am going to lose my mind. as you read in the last post, the lady told me i would find out within 48 hours. the bitch made me believe that i was going to find out today or tomorrow or some shit. i called again today right, and when he told me it was still pending, i thought i was gonna come through the phone on this man. so he puts me on hold for about 5 minutes. then he tells me the same information i got yesterday only with a new little nugget of information, it would be in review for up to another 20 days. when that he said those words, i...went...OFF. i have never in my life screamed at someone i didn't know, the way i did him. i was laying down when i called, but by the time i was done with him, i was sitting straight up. i had my full-on Tanisha voice going on top of everything. i said, "YOU GUYS HAVE HAD THIS CASE SINCE APRIL, IF YOU GUYS WOULD HAVE TOLD ME IN APRIL THAT IT WAS GOING TO TAKE THREE TO FOUR MONTHS, I WOULDN'T HAVE BEEN SO UPSET!!! EVERY TIME I CALL, YOU ADD ON ANOTHER 15, 20, 30 DAYS!! WHEN I FIRST CALL, SHE TELLS ME 40 DAYS, I WAIT THAT AMOUNT OF TIME AND NOTHING!!! NOW YESTERDAY I CALLED AND SHE TELLS ME 48 HOURS WHEN IT IS REALLY ANOTHER 20 DAYS, SHE SHOULDA TOLD ME THIS YESTERDAY!" he tells me it really shouldn't take longer than a week blah blah blah. i am fucking pissed off. i can't even begin to tell you how mad that shit made me. they should've told me in april that it would take the remainder of my fucking life to find out, then i would've been a lot more fucking understanding. i'm gonna go call the doctors office now. i haven't been this mad in a long time. omg. i need a cigarette soooo badly right now.

lady, i will go ape shit on your ass!

as yall know, i've been waiting to hear from my insurance company to tell me if i am covered to have my reduction surgery or not. i didn't trust them to just come forth with the information so i took it upon myself to keep track of the insurance company's progress. here's a timeline for ya...

Mid March: Lauren goes to the surgeon for the first time, has an exam. he says that she is a good candidate and tells her and her mom the next steps in getting the surgery.

End of March: all information is sent to Cigna (insurance company)

Mid to End of April: Lauren calls Cigna for the first time and asks if she is covered. the lady on the phone says that they JUSTTT received the information and it will take 40 days. okey dokey

:::Lauren waits 40 days:::

May: Lauren begins calling Cigna again... they say they are reviewing the case... and it could take another 15 days. lauren tells the lady that this is RIDICULOUS.

End of May: Lauren goes to NC. when she comes back, she calls again. they tell her that its still in review. lauren tells the bitch to put some urgency on the case cuz a bitch has no time to waste. the lady says okay.

Yesterday: Lauren calls (completely ready to go off if they tell her some more bullshit) Cigna. here is the dialogue

Lauren: hi, i'm calling about coverage for a breast reduction surgery
Operator Lady: okaaay, well let me look it up. can i put you on hold?
Lauren: sure why not.
:::corny ass music:::
O.L.: hello?
Lauren: hi
O.L.: Well it says here that the case is in review
Lauren: yes, well i am completely aware of that. you guys have had the case in your possession for WELL over the quoted time that you gave me. i need to know how much longer until i find out. i'm going to take your answer to that question very lightly because every time i call, i get the same answer of 30 days and that is just RIDICULOUS.
O.L.: okaaay, well its in the nurse's review phase as of.... June 10th.
Lauren: YESTERDAY?!!!
O.L: well actually, the case was sent to the wrong dept. and it arrived in the right one June 9th and has been in nurse's review since June 10th.
Lauren: okay so how long does it stay in that phase?
O.L.: it takes about 24-48 hours (finally an answer i can deal with)
Lauren: well thank you
O.L: have a nice day
Lauren: yeah, you too

So thats the end of the timeline.. hopefully later today i will have an answer!!! dear lord, its been one heck of a journey. i was so ready to go off on her. whoooo! my sanity is wearing SOO thin!

sorry to keep you waiting : )

okay so i was super excited to go to NC and i went and everything. it was really fun, but the first time was a lot more fun. since i've been back, i've worked and i've been really trying to watch what i eat and taking my vitamins and everything and i lost about 4 pounds! yay! it took a long time for me to finally get jumpstarted, but once i see results, i go crazy and do really well. if i lose 20 lbs this summer, i'll be stoked, at the very least, 10. i will not settle for less than 10. its been so hard to work out because my back is soo messed up. ehh i'll let u know how i'm doing, its too hot to type! lol.