boys will say anything!

wow this is so funny. i'm sitting on the laptop, minding my own business.. when mark.. remember him? IM's me. whoa. i was like oh hell no he didn't! but he did. and he says to me 'hey babe'. i was like are u kidding me!? the only time i initiated any form of conversation with him was to say happy birthday to him. i'm so nice. anyway, then he has the audacity to say that he misses me. i said you do? lol. i mean, i don't miss him so why would i say that i missed him?! which made me think to myself, boys really will say anything!! oh wait, i didn't even tell u that he told me he LOVED me. i was like what the hell?! no you don't! i swear to god, i make boys fall in love with me. they always wanna tell me they love me. i must be a lovable person or something. but the thing is, of course, i don't love them. boys are always trying to rush me into something man! they wanna date me or fuck me and then subsequently tell me whatever it takes just so that they can get the panties. well heres a hint, you CAN'T get the panties. they aren't for sale or for lease. you're credit isn't good enough, cuz MY panties are priceless. lol. i'm a fool for that one. anyway... heres how things have been...

last weekend i got really drunk. now i am a drinker, but i can count on one hand the times where i have gotten so drunk that i've passed out and/or thrown up. once was after prom, once last year, and then last weekend. now the night started out normally. i had three shots of effen vodka. after that, i was not drunk. my tolerance is higher than that. so i'm waiting around and it hit me a little bit, so i felt kind of nice. then i had some of my friend's drink and i downed it really fast. that probably wasn't a good idea. then i decided to go next door to my other friend's house since it was his birthday. i said hi to him and then went inside (with the rest of my posse). now, by this time i am drunk. just drunk. i decide that being just drunk isn't good enough, so i had to more cups of what we call 'jungle juice' lol. i don't even remember drinking it. by the time i was done with that, i was fucked up. like i couldn't stand up. i really don't know how i got back to my friends house. i think someone carried me. i do remember falling down a flight of stairs though. anyway, i threw up which was gross, and i passed out. then the next day once i got back to my room, i threw up again...it was awful. and my whole body was sore from falling down the stairs.. it was bad man, really bad.

in other news... things have been pretty chill. i've been doing really well in math! yes, math. my first test i got an 81 and the second test i got a 92! go lauren!! things with my friends have been pretty good. its a little annoying because they are ALL trying to join up with some sorority or fraternity. its so annoying. i just hope they realize that the chances of them actually making it is slim to none.

homecoming is coming up. i already told you how i feel about that. i just hope it all works out and i have a good time. i just don't want to be a stressed out mess.

in hair news... i have decided to go natural. for those of you who do not know what it is... it is the growing out of permed hair so that your natural hair is what you work with...lol. i've been perming my hair for SO long and i'm just tired of it. its expensive, it is damaging my hair, and i want my hair to be healthy! its going to be an interesting journey... i'll definitely do updates on this with pictures and everything! so exciting!

peace out<3

safe

uhmm i'm scared to write what i feel. this blog is so public! lol. but there are some things that are really scary to talk about in such a public way. so in short... good things are happening... but i can't talk about them. i suck, im sorry. but, don't worry readers, don't worry.