*i've decided not to be bitter/mad about valentines day. that takes too much energy. i have way too much to be happy about, to be sad about something as trivial as that. i may not have a boo or a boyfriend.. but i have a shit-ton of love in my life. love from my family, my friends, my turtle, i mean.. come on! i know there are people who love me and appreciate me. to be honest, those relationships will last longer than any meaningless boyfriend or girlfriend i have right now. and another thing. i realize that black women and asian men are the least married people in america. asian men, i don't know why... i guess the asian women honestly just DO NOT fuck with asian men. but i have a few ideas as to why black women don't get married. we're bitter! and i am too young to feel as bitter as i do. i'll be damned if i spend the rest of my goddamn life all alone. so for now, i'll just cheer the fuck up and wait it out.
thanks dani b
*i am currently on my way home (entering new jersey as i type). i am so elated to be going home. i miss my family and friends from LI so much. i am enjoying this bus ride immensely. i downloaded music already. i've been on a recent amy winehouse kick. i'm legit obsessed with her music. but it makes me sad because i don't know if she can make a recovery or a comeback. did yall know that she used to be kinda thick? like, this chick had meat on her. crack is a hell of a drug.
*this is really random. but i want a wig. not a crazy lace-front or anything.. just a regular wig. lol. i want it to be a bob with bangs..jet black. it will be like my alter ego... i would just wear it out when i'm trying to be fancy lol. i really want one...
*my stomach has been feeling really weird lately. i haven't been eating a lot at all (ever since my mom had a total thrombo when i told her how much i weighed)... not have i just been eating less.. i CAN'T eat what i used to be able to eat. like, i feel full really fast. i was just feeling hella hungry, ate half a sandwich and i'm full like shit.
*really cool thing... the other day i sat in the sauna after working out.. it felt sooo good! afterwards my body felt so limber and agile. it was great. i could touch my toes with no problem (i'm NOT flexible). it was really coollll.
thats all folks!
peace<3
Friday, February 13, 2009
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
oh lawddd
i have a really bad headache right now. if i don't make sense... thats why.
i get really bad headaches after i take naps. the longer the nap, the worse the headache. my mom says its because i'm waking up in the middle of a sleep cycle. she might be right.
i am still head over heels in love with mr. perfect. he texted me today, and it was magical. did u hear that? HE texted MEE!!!
CGT was such a waste of my time, how come yall didn't tell me?! i would go into detail about what happened when i saw him the other day, but that would be wasting even more time. he is too through.
if i could do anything in the world right now. i would take twenty dollars...go buy a bag and roll myself a nice fat blunt. then, i would smoke that blunt while listening to amy winehouse (my new obsession, i know, i'm late).. and then i would go to sleep. but for now, i will just listen to amy winehouse...and go to sleep..dreaming about mr. perfect. sighss...
i'm gonna sound like a fiend for a second... i am experiencing one of the best tv seasons EVER. i have something to watch everyday from sunday to thursday... its the BESTTT!!!
*i fell asleep right after writing this. but yeah. i felt mad shitty. i feel better now. luv ya. muah!*
peace<3
i get really bad headaches after i take naps. the longer the nap, the worse the headache. my mom says its because i'm waking up in the middle of a sleep cycle. she might be right.
i am still head over heels in love with mr. perfect. he texted me today, and it was magical. did u hear that? HE texted MEE!!!
CGT was such a waste of my time, how come yall didn't tell me?! i would go into detail about what happened when i saw him the other day, but that would be wasting even more time. he is too through.
if i could do anything in the world right now. i would take twenty dollars...go buy a bag and roll myself a nice fat blunt. then, i would smoke that blunt while listening to amy winehouse (my new obsession, i know, i'm late).. and then i would go to sleep. but for now, i will just listen to amy winehouse...and go to sleep..dreaming about mr. perfect. sighss...
i'm gonna sound like a fiend for a second... i am experiencing one of the best tv seasons EVER. i have something to watch everyday from sunday to thursday... its the BESTTT!!!
*i fell asleep right after writing this. but yeah. i felt mad shitty. i feel better now. luv ya. muah!*
peace<3
Sunday, February 8, 2009
Pinky's Golden Rule
treat others how you want to be treated... yeah thats good and all, but i have my own golden rule.
"Lauren does whatever the hell she wants, she might ask for your opinion, but at the end of the day, its her way or the highway"
if you want to be my friend, kick it with me, be around me, its really best that you understand the sentence quoted above. i really do not like being told what to do. i can understand when things are in my best interest and i know how to be respectful... but really at the end of the day, if i want to do something, i will do it. i will find a way to do it. if people tell me i can't do something, it just makes me want to do it even more. one of my pet peeves was that i hate when people tell my 'smoking kills' when i'm smoking. mother fucker i know that. obviously i'm not thinking about that little fact right now, so leave me the fuck alone. anything i choose to do is MYYYY choice.
the reason i brought this little ditty up is because this guy i was just talking to tried to get on me about weed and saying smoking kills and shit. i told him that it was one of my biggest pet peeves and that i do whatever the fuck i want. i guess he didn't like that or whatever, but i really don't care. i feel that if you are not my mother or my father, you really can't TELL me what to do. you can suggest things... for example, a teacher telling me to write a paper is really just a suggestion, its up to me whether i do it or not.
who knows maybe i'm wrong. maybe i'm really immature. maybe i'm just one hell of a Taurus. who knows???
"Lauren does whatever the hell she wants, she might ask for your opinion, but at the end of the day, its her way or the highway"
if you want to be my friend, kick it with me, be around me, its really best that you understand the sentence quoted above. i really do not like being told what to do. i can understand when things are in my best interest and i know how to be respectful... but really at the end of the day, if i want to do something, i will do it. i will find a way to do it. if people tell me i can't do something, it just makes me want to do it even more. one of my pet peeves was that i hate when people tell my 'smoking kills' when i'm smoking. mother fucker i know that. obviously i'm not thinking about that little fact right now, so leave me the fuck alone. anything i choose to do is MYYYY choice.
the reason i brought this little ditty up is because this guy i was just talking to tried to get on me about weed and saying smoking kills and shit. i told him that it was one of my biggest pet peeves and that i do whatever the fuck i want. i guess he didn't like that or whatever, but i really don't care. i feel that if you are not my mother or my father, you really can't TELL me what to do. you can suggest things... for example, a teacher telling me to write a paper is really just a suggestion, its up to me whether i do it or not.
who knows maybe i'm wrong. maybe i'm really immature. maybe i'm just one hell of a Taurus. who knows???
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