buenooo

i suppose i should update on my life lol. this week was {clearly} awesome. i had three really good days in a row. everything just appeared to be going my way. so yesterday cgt and i had a text conversation. he had called me the day before while he was at a tattoo parlor. i was a little salty cause i wanted to go! he had to get off the phone and he told me to text him... when i texted him, he said he wasn't sure if he could get the tattoo. then i texted something else and he didn't answer. the next day (yesterday) i texted him (i think, its getting kinda blurry) and he said he couldn't get the tattoo because the people ahead of him took forever so he went home. then i told him that i AM coming the next time. he said that was cool. then i said i was really excited (which i am, i just love tattoos!!!) i'm gonna write the rest of the convo vertically:
me: if you cry, i'll hold ur hand
cgt: sooo, you think i'm gonna cry?
me: maybe, idk, you ARE pretty tough
cgt: i am!
me: well when i get one, you can hold my hand, cuz i'm not as tough as u
cgt: lol, i will
me: sooo, i have a plan for us this weekend : )
cgt: remember, i told u i'm having ppl over this weekend
me: true : (
cgt: what did u have in mind?
me: i wanted to go see 'role models'
cgt: ?
me: the movie about those two guys who have to watch the little black kid and the kid from superbad
cgt: oh yeah, can we do that next weekend pleaseeeeeee?!!!!!!
me: yeah, for sure
oh yeah then i asked him if he could get me some liquor. (for my friends bday)
then later on in the day, maybe like, 3 o'clock, he calls me saying that he can't get the alcohol for me until after he is done with practice. then i told him i didn't need it until monday night. blah blah blah. then we hung up and he called me back maybe 2 or 3 hours later and we talked for a bit. he was telling me that his friends from alabama were here and he sounded really excited lol. we didn't really talk for the rest of the night, i'm sure he was busy entertaining his guests.

later on i went to the diner with gill, which was deelish... then we came back and knitted. i finished the scarf i started a year ago that had been thoroughly neglected. overall, it was a pretty relaxed night.
peace

chuuuuuch!

church had always been a pretty big part of my life. things changed a bit when i first got to howard and i stopped going as often out of inconvenience. when i would return home and go back to church, things just weren't the same. i felt myself rolling my eyes, internally disagreeing, and counting down the minutes until it was over. i felt bad but, i decided that i needed to analyze these feelings. what i came up with was that i truly DO NOT agree with a lot of the things my church stands for. they really believe in trying to change people's ideas. whether it be evolution versus creation, or any other beliefs, i just don't believe in wasting my life away trying to CONVERT CONVERT CONVERT. i'll share my beliefs with you and if you don't like it, thats cool. also, i never really liked the head pastor. there is this air about him that rubbed me the wrong way. he is from the south and i always wondered how he felt about blacks. in my naivete i always thought that christians were not racist because we are supposed to love each other as brothers and sisters in christ. another aspect of my life that has changed (within the same spectrum) is my conservative beliefs. i realized that whether the bible says its wrong or not, i don't care about subjects like, gay marriage, gay rights, abortion.. basically all the taboo bullshit that christians obsess over. i don't feel a certain way about it, i just do not care. i'm INDIFFERENT on those subjects. i don't know if god made gays that way or made me be attracted to girls and boys, but i'm pretty sure He loves me regardless so who cares? yet another thing, is the fact that my mother told me something the head pastor said (about politics... obama and mccain) he said, "the answers to the problems in the world are not going to come from mccain, and they are CERTAINLY not going to come from obama." that REALLY REALLY bothered me. as previously mentioned, i am hugely supportive of obama, and that statement was so uncool. and now for the MEMBERS of the church. i don't like them. i haven't since about 8th grade. i always went to youth group when i was younger. honestly, it was the best part of my week. i loved it. then i got older. my friends (were older) and stopped coming or went to college. i stopped going and then realized that i hated the people there. i basically stopped being involved with anything in church, aside from singing. more recently, because of the recent election of my boo barack, i noticed some of the status' of people in my church and i was horrified. "he's going to get shot anyway" things like that. i've had it! i told my parents not to ask me to come to church because i'm never going in there again. they said i can do whatever i want. : ) so thats my conclusion!
peace

three in a row dude!

okay today was also a great day. i mean it was a FAB day! i woke up early, 8am to be exact. my first class wasn't until 11 so i gave myself plenty of time to register for classes, eat, relax, and enjoy the morning. i like not rushing in the morning. i went to go register for my classes and got each and every one of the classes i wanted!!! even tae kwon do! things are looking up! then i walked down to the bank so that i could deposit that check, but the ATM wasn't working. that didn't even bother me. as i was waiting for the 'walk' sign to come on, three truck drivers honked at me. lol. that made me laugh. i was in such a good mood in fact, that i called my DAD! but he couldn't talk. so then i went to class and bernette, my supervisor, called me. she told me that i didn't need to go to work today. that was good and bad because i wanted to see CGT, but i also wanted to go back to my room and sleep... which is exactly what i did. its weird though, when i take naps sometimes, i wake up with these awful headaches. anyhoo. i haven't really talked to CGT today other than to tell him that i wasn't going to work.
peace

best day ever part two

OBAMAAAAAAAAAA!
i am so in shock and filled with emotion that i can't even write something coherent right now... so i'll have to talk about something else. and thats all i have to say about that.

well, as of right now, everything is just peachy. i got a lovely little text message from CGT this morning wishing me a good day :). i'm really trying to be practical without projecting... basically i'm trying to see myself in a relationship with this guy. if i really can't see myself with him, why waste my time, right? i haven't really figured it out yet, but i find myself wanting to be around him, so i think thats a good sign. plus, he wants me to meet his friends... which (to me) is almost as important as meeting family... maybe just as important! i mean, if your boyfriend's friends don't like you, its probably not going to work out. i'm blowing this up.. stop it lauren! whoo! okay.

something that made me happy: i was owed a check from outback from maaaaaad long ago, august to be exact. and it finally came today!

something that made me happy: i just bought this friggin adorable OBAMA t-shirt that i'm in love with. i'll take a picture with it on and put it up here!

something that made me happy: i didn't go to my last two classes today : )

something that will make me happy: i'm joining the gym on saturday! yay!

life is pretty good, no major complaints (other than registering for classes tomorrow) but yeah. no complaints.

peace

best day ever

i have been having the BEST day! its been awesome like, you don't even understand! i'll start from the beginning. i didn't have class today but i had to be at work at 9:40. as best days go, i walk in the building at 9:40 on the DOT! i was so happy with myself. it takes a lot to be on time when you rely on public transportation! i walked into the multi purpose room (where i usually see cgt) and i did, in fact, see him. but he was doing something so i just went straight to work. i finished screening ALL the kids! i was sooo happy with myself! my boss even said that i am, 'awesome' lol. so work was awesome. as i was leaving i texted cgt saying that i saw him but he looked busy and i just left. he calls me right back and asks how far away i am.. i was like, right down the street so i just turned around and i went to the store with him and his friends from the school. he was friggin adorable. he was saying that he wants to spend time with me and to meet his friends this coming weekend (aww!). it was so cute! he hugged me and said 'well i can't kiss you in front of everyone!' mind you, i never asked for one... lol. we just had some small talk and it was really nice. before i left he told me to call him later... twice. lol. he also asked if i wanted to watch the polls with him tonight which i had to kindly decline. i had already promised some friends that i'd watch with them. i was also lucky enough not to get caught in the rain!

most importantly, today is november 4th. the day we have all been waiting for. i am so emotionally involved in this election, its not even funny. you can't even understand how much i LOVE senator barack obama. i love that man. i remember the first time i heard his name about 5 years ago and my aunt saying, 'i bet he'll be president one day'. i never thought i'd get to see a black man in the whitehouse in my lifetime. how wrong i was! not only will i get to see it, i got to VOTE on it! my very first time voting, i got to vote for a black man! i'm a part of history and it is so amazing. i really do get emotional just thinking about this dynamic man sitting in the oval office making REAL changes in the world. i can't wait for it.

in contrast, i HATE mccain. i hate him. i hate him. i hate him. he is satanic to me. i can see what our country would be like with him in charge and it scares to me. i see us reverted back to the 30s where everyone is jobless, without homes and food. i see us in a brand new great depression. he is not capable of doing anything positive for this nation because it would just be another 4-8 years of bush being in office. and we don't like bush, do we? i'm gonna make a list of reasons why i hate John McCain:
1. He has a creepy face.
2. He lifts his arms up at a creepy angle.
3. He called his wife a 'cunt'.
4. He agrees with Bush on like, 90% of the shit he's done.
5. He called my boo Obama, "that one". aw HELL no!
6. His wife looks like a bitch.
7. He called his wife a 'trollop'
8. I just don't like him.. okay?!

woo! that felt kinda good. so tonight i'll be viewing the polls with my peers on campus and it should be a very nerve racking and emotional experience but i can't wait! more lata!